Oh, October. Oh, October!
Yes, this post is more than a month late. But why break the tradition? :) In truth, I’ve been having a hard time just starting with it. Let’s give it another shot, then.
For most of the time before I turned 31, I felt so blah about it. I felt none of the excitement or sparkle that I usually have before October. I planned my family lunch just a few days before my birthday, I didn’t plan friend meet ups, I didn’t expect anything, blah, blah, blah. Is this really how it is as you grow older? I feel like I’m not myself anymore. The usual Chubbs would be giddy with excitement as the end of September approached. This year it was just that: Blah.
I could stop here, but the dreamy-eyed me will hold a strike in protest. I couldn’t let that happen. There is still a lot to be thankful for. And that age — that two-feet-in-the-30s-door age — is one of them.
Midday on October 4th, I began to realize that the day was not about the big things, but about the little ones. Sure, there are frustrations of exactly where I want to be in life. But man, there were more good things than bad. And the bad things were NOT actually bad. I’m just… impatient (as usual), and I just lost some perspective of the things that matter.
You’ve been great and not, as well
Oh, my October!
Memories of love
I wish to hold everything
In my heart and mind
Earlier, an officemate commented that my Facebook page looks so IN LOVE. I laughed and told him that I’ll share the whole story next time. But in my mind I thought, “Why not? Why not feel so in love?”
After finding my tall 3-year high school classmate cute and then dancing to our Grad Ball’s last song; after the years in college when we became better friends and my love for him grew, why not? After texting him if he could be my 18th rose, and he answered “siyempre, ikaw pa” — 3 simple words that melted my heart, why not? After inadvertently sharing CURSOR Awitan progress to a very secretive and very competitive IE Clubber, why not? After his courtships to other girls that eventually faded away, but I knew everything about (being the good friend that I am ;-)); after a lot of prospects and exaggerated hopes for me; after heartbreak that came and went for both of us, why not? After those sporadic movie and dinner meet-ups when I would jump at the chance to see him; after the timed replies to his text messages and wondering why I still liked/loved him through my working years, why not? After a fateful drunken night of admissions and realizations, of tears and “I love yous”, I ask myself again, why the hell not?
On July 4th, we welcomed Mathias to the world :) He is the little boy of my favorite doctor couple — Ate Mitzi and Kuya Mark. It is heartwarming to think that I was third wheeling for many years with them, and now they have a permanent third wheel in the person of this little baby.
While seeing this little one over Google Hangouts and connecting with family, I felt the outpouring of love. Family will forever be family, and love will always be available to everyone of us. So much grace and thanksgiving was felt when Mathias was born.
Welcome to the family, Mathias! :) See you soon online and I hope your mom doesn’t gigil you too much :) We love you!
I was sure to watch Boyzone’s 2nd concert in Manila on May 26 of this year, but the question was, who was the best person to bring? Upon asking my sisters and boyfriend why I should bring them, I got the following responses:
Paula: May outfit na ko for the concert!
RG: Ha?!? Ako ba isasama mo?
Kris: (sang ALL the Boyzone songs I quizzed her on. She knew everything!)
So it was obvious that I was bringing Kris. :) But it became more obvious when Boyzone appeared onstage that Tuesday night at the Araneta Coliseum. Even with the 1.5-hour wait and lots of complaints from my sister, she beat me to the classic, shrill, fan-crazed scream! And who wouldn’t scream when one lays her eyes on this one?
The Good Life at Anvaya Cove
When we first visited Anvaya Cove 4 years ago, I was gushing of the beautifully landscaped resort community, its clean pools, and inviting waters. When we eagerly came back this year, some things have changed, but the overall feel is the same. The place still makes me want to wear my shades and sing —
Oh, this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good good life